E has breast cancer. I don't know when I'll be back.

WOW!!!!!
So I read an article on Huffington Post at the beginning of the week about losing weight in an age where the bigger the food the better. They asked people to send in their stories and they PICKED ME! They put me in a slideshow with 4 other people with weight loss stories. :D
I may not be at the finish line yet but I'm not giving up, no way no how.
Losing Weight In A 2,500-Calorie-Pizzaburger World

I've also decided that once E gets done with her marathon training that we're gonna look into doing personal training at the gym. I honestly think that's the push I need to lose these final 50 lbs.

WOOT WOOT!!!!

Me and E did the St. Petersburg Women's Half Marathon on Sunday and it was amazing. E blew through it at 3 hrs. 15 mins. and I came in at 3 hrs. 59 mins. That's what happens when you have to take 2 pee breaks that end up lasting 7 minutes a piece trying to get into the port o potties. Also the last three miles I kinda wandered and chatted with people. My two goals going in to this thing was to FINISH and finish under 4 hrs. which I did both. I had a BLAST and can't wait to do it again!

I'm so proud. E is training with Team in Training to run the Disney Marathon in Jan. She's doing this not just to help find a cure for blood cancers but to take control of her own health.
Here's her donation page, any little thing will help even just reposting the link for others to see.
E's Team In Training Fundraising Page

Well I'm not pregnant, which I didn't think I would be but I am 6 lbs. heavier than I was two weeks ago. I'm back up to 207. This is not good. I'm gonna struggle with weight for the rest of my life no matter what I do until I learn how to gain some control. I looked in the mirror over the past two weeks and noticed my face looked fat, "Oh I'm swollen, maybe I'm pregnant" and various other excuses. Yeah I'm swollen alright but it's because I let stress get the better of me and ate my way through my two week wait and not once went to the gym.
We're going to Tampa for the weekend with friends and I will try my hardest to keep my eating in check but come Monday I'm busting it down at the gym. I put 6 lbs. on in two weeks and if I work hard enough I can easily lose 6 lbs. in two weeks.
We're not trying again until either Sept or Oct and by then I will have lost the remaining weight to be at 190 or lower.
I can't wait for it to get cool again so I can drop my gym membership and do what I love most which is walking at lunch and walking after work outside. I hate the gym but unfortunately if you want to lose any weight during the summer in Florida you've either gotta have gym equipment or have a gym membership.
I can do this. I've hit bumps before and got back on track. Lesson learned.

Well I know I still have 6 days left but I'm almost 100% that I'm totally NOT pregnant. Once next Monday comes I'm gonna start doing the C25K again and hopefully lose some more weight before trying again in August. Here's to the last 11 lbs. I need to lose and praying to gain them back with a baby starting in August.

Well I'm sitting at 201 AND the very middle of our first two week wait to see if we're pregnant. I was really stressing out this week about what I was eating and wanting to lose weight. Then I realized that HELLO I was already stressed enough and didn't need to add on to it. So I'm still hitting the gym but I'm not worried too much about what I'm eating, except making sure there's no gluten.
Am I pregnant? Probably not but I won't know for another 10 days. Until then I'll relax enjoy the thought that I am and once I get the results I'll go from there.
If I'm not I think I'm gonna kick the weight loss into high gear for the rest of the summer then start trying again once the fall comes.

Went to my annual Wed. and weighed in at 202. It's good but I'm trying not to think that after our trip to Baltimore and D.C. where I ate my way through Baltimore I gained 3 lbs. so I probably weighed UNDER 200 before. It's ok. It's cool.
We're leaving for Zumba in a few minutes. And I'm gonna keep trucking hard because we're now sitting at a month before TTC #1 and I'd like to be under 200 when we do.
E got a JOB! I forgot about that. She FINALLY after two years got a teaching job at a school she loves and a place she'll be an amazing teacher at. I'm so freaking happy for her. She'll be leaving for a month at the beginning of July just like last year.

I'm sitting at a nice solid 203.5. Not bad. Would probably be better if I didn't have dental surgery to get two impacted screwed up wisdom teeth out and the only thing I can eat is soft breads and other gluten filled crappy stuff that give me bloat. I'll take the bloat and work it off this coming week as long as my teeth stop hurting. The doctor told me on my check up Wed. that they'd stop hurting by tomorrow. Well today I woke up and immediately took 800mg of Motrin and the pain is still sitting there. My dad said it's because I keep thinking about it. I only took 1 darvocet yesterday. That's really good considering over the course of the last two weeks I've been through 60 pills PLUS motrin and tylenol. Not good. I have a filling and crown appointment on the 9th and my teeth will be all taken care of. This really has been the month from teeth hell.

Whoops.

I go three months without posting it seems. BUT the good news is I'm still losing. On Saturday I was at 203.5. Yeah yeah ooooo 3.5 in 3 months. It's not great but I'm happy with it.  I'm still losing and that's all that matters. I have 14 lbs. until I'm back where I was 4 years ago when I lost all of the weight. I was 190. I want to get back there by the beginning of May. 

June is the beginning of us trying to have a baby. I'm excited and terrified all at the same time. I know if I can just make it to 190 before then if I gain at the MOST 20 during pregnancy I'll be ok. 

I'm so close to getting under 200 and I'm excited and a little bit scared. It's been 3 years since I've been under 200 and I'm trying not to keep sabatoging myself. Which I have been a little bit for the last couple of months. People have been coming to visit almost every week for the last month so I've used it as an excuse to eat, drink and have fun and not worry about losing weight, just as long as I was maintaining. BUT it's the final countdown here. I have 14 to lose by May so we can get this baby plan rolling. 

It's three days after the holidays and I just got back from my weigh in. Right before Christmas I weighed myself and I was 207. My goal for the holidays was to keep the weight off. If I lost weight OF COURSE that would be good but I just wanted to stay the same. After CRAZINESS of the holiday, the food and no exercising I'm at 207.5 :D I gained half a lbs. but that ok for sure.
I went to the bra store yesterday because they were having a B2G2 sale. I needed to be remeasured because I couldn't remember what I was last time but I knew that the 40H I was wearing was NOT effective anymore other than making my boobs look HORRIBLE. I'm a freaking 38DDD and THAT is why the bra is horrible. I can't freaking believe it. Since losing weight I've gone down 4 cup sizes. Right now at 17 lbs. heavier than when I lost ALL of my weight in 06 I'm wearing the same size 16 pants and wearing the same sized bra. If from here on out I lost all the weight in my chest I'd be happy. :D