Friday, May 29, 2009

222!!!!! I don't know how it happened but it did!! FINALLY. I'm so freaking happy. I actually broke outta 224. It's all down hill from now on... and I mean number wise. :D
It's been two weeks since I updated but in no way did I fall off the wagon. The first week I did NO exercise because it was raining every single minute of every single day for a week. It finally got cleared up and I started walking again. Sat, E went back to WW and though it was hard I'm glad she actually did. Because now we can both work as a unit to lose weight. Something we've never done in the 2 years we've lived together. This week my exercise has been ok. Nothing great at all. I went to the doctor on Wed. and I was 224. STILL. I'm not frustrated because even though my weight hasn't changed my body shape has. Plus I know what I need to do to lose weight. I have to do more cardio. I'm going to start up my C25K program again. I'll do it on M, T, Th during my lunch hour. I'll walk to the gym, do 30 minutes on the treadmill then walk back to work. I've been getting good exercise for the passed few months and my eating was pretty solid but I just haven't been doing the RIGHT exercising. I'll get it though. I know I will.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Wow. It's amazing how something so small can change your mood so quickly.
I was standing in the lunch room getting water from the machine ( it takes FOREVER to fill up my 34 oz. bottle). And a woman I've never met before said, "You've lost a lot of weight recently haven't you?" I honestly looked around for who she was talking to before I realized it was me.
I was kicking the hell out of myself today, even bitching to myself about the pack of captain's wafers I had with my no more than 300 cal. salad for lunch.
I feel so much better now. :D
So it's Friday. I'm not sure how my week has been. Two pairs of pants that usually fit or at one point quite snug are to the point they can be pulled off without unbuttoning them. I haven't been to the gym all week. I have been walking each day except Wed. Where I unfortunately went to the chinese buffet and today. My sister is graduating tonight so I have to use my lunch hour to leave an hour early so I can get out of town before the traffic rush.
I talked to my sister in law and she said my dad has lost SO much weight. I'm really proud of him but a big huge part of me is scared that when I get to the house he won't see that I've been doing something not just to lose weight but to change my relationship with food and exercise. He'll just see that it's taken me 3 months to lose 13 lbs. I know I'm PMSy and I miss E (she's at her sister's graduation in Mass.) and it's sending my emotions into overdrive and I'm probably projecting but I can't help it. I'm going to fight real hard to be good this weekend so I don't do any damage and hopefully can lose weight next week. I feel like I did this week but I'm not certain and won't know until I get on the scale next week.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

I weighed myself on Friday and I was 224. Not bad, not bad at all. I haven't weighed myself this week yet but I'm sure I've lost. The pants I bought in March when we were in Boston are getting really baggie on me. E is gone to Boston for a week for her sister's graduation so I'm fending for myself. She left me this really awesome low fat, low calorie cornbread pudding type stuff to eat with the two pork chops she left for me but the stuff DID NOT sit well overnight only to be reheated in the microwave. So last night for dinner I had a pork chop with one of the awesome Arnold Sandwich thins and some veggie light cream cheese.

I had a test on Monday at school and I got a 96 and yesterday she snuck a test in on us and I got a 96 again. :D I do really well at these surprise tests. Doesn't give me time to stress out about messing up. My teacher told me yesterday that I'm really doing awesome and it gave me the extra boost to my confidence that I needed.
I bought a new water bottle this passed weekend, one that has a strap so I can carry it to the gym without it being to awkward and I'm glad I did! It was SCORCHING hot on Monday when I had to walk to the bank and if it wasn't for that water bottle I would have flat out died. I'm just glad it cooled off yesterday.
I KNOW it's about to be that TOM because I'm craving sushi SOOOOO bad. I want to go to the chinese buffet up the street from my house where they surprisingly have amazing sushi but I need to stay on track. My sister's graduation party is this weekend and I know they're gonna have alot of crazy stuff. Plus my friends are having a Pampered Chef party so I know there will be good food there. I can do this. :D

Thursday, May 7, 2009

I weighed myself today at the gym even though I wasn’t supposed to but I’m glad I did. I wanted to see HOW badly I’d screwed up this passed weekend. THANKFULLY with this week being super strict (Except yesterday when I ate my weight in sushi.) I was 224. I’ll have the final week number tomorrow.
It’s MAD crazy hot outside and I bought a pair of shorts that are kinda spandexy but not really. It’s just so hot I couldn’t walk to the gym in my pants anymore. I’ve been doing a pilates class on T&TH that’s cool. It’s killer because I have NO ab muscles whatsoever but I love it. As I was leaving today I said something to the tiny girl behind the counter at the Y about how it was super hot outside and I didn’t want to have to walk back to work. She asked where I worked and I told her and she was like, “WOW that’s a big walk.” I told her it’s only .8 mile and she was still shocked. I love that feeling. Knowing that I’m doing something someone else thinks is crazy hard.
Speaking of crazy hard. I had a test on Monday and I got a 95. I’m so proud of myself. There’s no way I’m going to fail this school. This time two years from now I’ll be working it out as a court reporter. :D

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Ugh. I don't even want to step on a scale this week. I love Ellen but it's SOOO good she doesn't live closer to us. She's a very tiny, tiny girl but she eats like a fat girl. My whole weekend was a glutton of food and booze. Sunday we went to St. Augustine and went to a winery tour then walked around went to Sangria's which is AMAZING had some Sangria and appetizers then went over to Columbia for dinner and dessert. Oh I forgot we started out the day with bread, cheese and fig preserve lunch. I know I gained weight. I'm just scared to see how much. I had a gallbladder attack on Sunday night. E thinks it has to do with Brie because almost every time I have an attack there's Brie involved.
I decided to be STRONG the rest of the week and be good, clean everything out with a week of fruit, salads and soups. And I even refused a trip to Savannah with E and Ellen because I know one of the main things they're gonna do is go to Paula Deen's. Plus Savannah is full of such good boozing spots such as my favorite water front dive, The Warehouse.
I think I'm ok though. I got it under control very well yesterday and today. Hopefully I can at least lose what I gained over the weekend. Good thing is Chris won't be coming for another month AT LEAST so I have time to lose more weight before having another weekend of debauchery.

Friday, May 1, 2009

223!! WOO! I broke through it. I had an AMAZING week. Saturday when we were cleaning out the garage I threw away BOTH of the scales we had. Tossed them right in the garbage and didn’t look back. They’re gone and so was my temptation to weigh myself 3-4 times a day. I think getting rid of the stress of weight helped a lot this week. I felt so good, so dedicated to losing the weight this week. I said I’d be happy with 1 lb. lost but 3 is spectacular! I’ll beat my 220 by the end of the month goal easily if I keep this up.
I kept my food at 1200 this week and worked out the same and it did the trick. I felt so good that I didn’t have one moment this week where I just wanted to eat and eat. It’s a good day.
Now I get to go home and do MORE exercise by cleaning my house before Ellen gets here tomorrow. And that includes lugging a huge sofa up the stairs. This should be fun.